Lindsay Ell opens up about eating disorders: 'I have lived in denial'

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COVER.METALNATION.ORG Despite her eating disorder, Lindsay Ell is ready to talk about it. She shared on Instagram just a few weeks ago that she had been diagnosed with an eating disorder. "I've been living in denial for about 20 years," she wrote in her caption.

COVER.METALNATION.ORG She opened up about mental health during an appearance on Kaitlyn Bristowe's Off The Vine podcast on Thursday, opening up about hitting "a whole new kind of rock bottom." She sought help because of the hopeless situation she found herself in.

COVER.METALNATION.ORG "I was finally like I can’t fight this alone, I can't do this by myself," she told Bristowe. "Food became this thing that was like a drug, which I was abusing it and not eating and eating and it was just like this relationship that was no longer a healthy thing."

COVER.METALNATION.ORG As soon as Ell recognized she had a problem, she felt better. She explained that she had been denial about what an eating disorder would look like due to her perception of what it would look like.

COVER.METALNATION.ORG "I think that in our brains we have a vision of like someone who's anorexic for an example should be 90 pounds, skin and bones, whatever."

COVER.METALNATION.ORG As she posted on Monday, it has been an internal struggle that onlookers haven't seen. "I no longer had control over what I ate or didn't eat in the shadows. I got really good at pretending that everything was OK out in public but at home I was shriveling up," she wrote. "I know that eating disorders are flags to the need for deeper work."

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